it was only a few nights ago when a destined rainfall caught us in its embrace. it was a night difficult to forget, and i can still remember the feeling of being enveloped in the midst of dancing rain that trickled off our skins. the millions of raindrops seemed to be falling from the highest of heavens as if seeking to be remembered. and to me, i know it would be a memory of many years to come.
//credits: anonymous
it was midnight, and every touch of rain spoke of the coldness that was befalling us. however, at the same time, there was a certain warmth that overwhelmed my heart. as we ran through the rain, you were there holding me close against you to protect me from the cold. the book bag and shirt you held over my head kept me as dry as possible. and when i looked up at you, i can see the fully drenched hair and clothes in the dark right next to me.
and with that, i know you are meant to be the roof over my head in the home we build together ♥
it was so beautiful..that winter dream of yours. i can still remember the flakes of snow levitating in thin air like winter’s dandelions in a sky full of weightless wishes falling five centimeters per second into our hearts. it was a dream long before i truly knew you, yet i knew that something about the dream was special. in a cold dream such as this, it was ironically filled with warmth..the warmth of your presence that fills the soul.
but most importantly, the dream foretold the destinies of both our lives that changed the directions of our paths forever~*
and the moment you showed up at my doorstep in the breaking dawn tells me that no matter when or where, your desire to see me will always take you to your heart’s destination ♥
(via theshutterbug)
many times, people wish they can live a day less than the one they love so they would never have to go through a day of their lives without them. to most of us, it seems reasonable to guarantee our own deaths before those of our love’s. yet, have you ever wondered whether this wish is only based on our own heart’s selfishness?
like many others, i would never want to choose to live a day without you. but the more i thought about securing my death before yours got me thinking whether it is too selfish of an act knowing that it would mean you having to live without me.
what i have always known about love is that it is not selfish. but at the same time, it contradicts itself more or less when i am with you, and that is when i realize it builds itself upon both aspects. and as i learn to love you even more, i know i cannot be selfish for myself but instead be selfish for the one i care about.
perhaps, we have always expected a little bit too much from our own reality that we fail to see what is really in front of us. too often, we wish our life stories can be as beautiful as that of a drama and as destined as its main characters. we envision, fantasize, and compare our reality to what is simply made up that we hope to build our stories based on these dramas. however, why are we trying so hard to live in what is not truly real?
often times, we forget. we forget that we too have our own story and drama. but by the time we remember, we would have already missed out on so much that would never be retrieved. our stories are handwritten by the ways we control our fate. our drama is personally directed by how we walk down this life. every time our focus strays to what is only fabricated by the mind, we lose track of all the moments we should have cherished.
//via: fychinesenetidols
as humans, we do have dreams. we may dream that we will one day be living in the dramas we desire. however, to me, what is more beautiful is the drama we are creating every day of our lives. we tend to overlook that, but every memory is like a scene in a movie or a foreshadowing of what is to come. and what is better about this drama of ours is that we are not watching it come to life before our eyes, we are living it.
“our journey is a drama. how we walk through this journey is how the drama will go. episodes don’t count if we’re not together”
not because we like the feeling of being chased, but because sometimes we need to know that someone will put in the extra effort to win our hearts. depending on how far they’ll go and even by their simplest actions, we want to know that they understand the worth of our hearts and know that it won’t be easy to obtain. it will not be a game, but a challenge. and once won over through persistent efforts, they will know how to cherish our hearts like the prize it is.
too many times, hearts are being thrown around without care and sometimes, it’s just nice to have someone show us that they know our heart’s worth and know that it is a treasure to be cherished.
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and to know that someone like you is willing to chase after this heart of mine no matter the cost puts me at ease knowing that you will never leave my heart injured and broken. as long as it is still beating, i am reassured that you are the true keeper of the beat in my life.
if one day you had to make the decision whether to have your memories erased and to live or to die keeping your memories - which would you choose?
in the same sense, would you rather live in a dream where your loved ones are still with you..or would you rather stay in reality - a place where they are gone?
i guess some things can never be forgotten or replaced.
the more i come to a realization that only your hello’s can make my day feel complete.
what if one day you realize this life you were living has always been just a dream and that the only way out is to wake back up to reality? what if there is a chance for you to give up this dream for a real life? would you? or would you stubbornly hold onto this hallucination just to continue dreaming?
//via: theshutterbug
to me, if life in reality means leaving everything behind including you, i would rather choose to forever stay trapped in the dream just to be with you. simply staying with you is already the life i have always been searching for; there is no need to give it up for another. it may be just a dream, but like you said, “even if you are a hallucination and i have loved someone who doesn’t exist, this love can last me a lifetime; that’s more than enough. why not cherish something fake and be happy than grasp onto something that hurts you again & again? it’s my choice to be happy and i’d love you with no extent.” so to me, it does not matter whether this life is real or not because what is real are the feelings we share that i can never deny.
yet, i know for a fact that i am not dreaming. no matter what, without you, there will never be a reality. and if reality refuses to include you in my world, i would rather be a part of a dream that promises me my happiness.
“i’m as real as it gets. i promise you won’t lose me, not to some mere dream. i will outsmart my subconscious if i have to..just to see you again”
